| Saturday, June 10th, 2006 |
| 12:08 pm |
grrrr the good and bad of life
Seriously the last year has been a real struggle i try not to focus on the bad but it's simply impossible at times lately i have had some really brilliant things happen in life like meeting Ned and work becoming so much more supportive of my finacial situation. Also not to forget my really close friends Caila, Gen, Nina, Meegan and Akira etc etc being total gems to me. but the bad just seems to peep through and it's just so hard to ignore or brush away. The fact my mum is in soo much pain and unable to even speak properly makes the contact we try to maintain difficult and not to mention she fell through the shower door the other night so she's in hopsital with sever cuts all up her body. It's hard not to feel like i could of done something but i know it's out of my control and this is why i have such bitter opinions when it comes to "God". If he is of truth then why is this happening to my mum?? it makes no sense :( today im going to see my brothers grave which i'm sure will put me in a sad mood but it's been ages since i have visited him. 15 years is a longtime but his passing hurts just as much as the day he passed on :( im tired of being unhappy but it's just a little difficult but i'm hopeful and determined on things turning up. like today after the cemetry i'm going to the record fair and seeing Ned and tonight i'll be hanging with friends and maybe seeing a movie :) my friends, swing dancing, zine, work (friends), step dad and shows seem to be the only things putting a smile on my face but under the surface i just want to run and cry :( sorry to sound soo negitive i hate how i have been lately but i just needed to get some anger off my chest. i'm sure in a few weeks after i have got things in my life to a better understanding i will be back and happier than ever :) Cheers stars p.s sorry to everyone i have been pushing away or rude to lately i have just needed to distance myself and get my head together as poor an effort i have done it Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: dean martin |
| Monday, May 29th, 2006 |
| 8:20 pm |
HELP HELP HELP!!!
ok ok so heres the deal i have got most my zine stuff organised together except for my front cover (DRAMA!!) so if anyone can help me with suggestions or is willing to do something for me PLEASE CONTACT ME :D otherwise i'll have to do something myself and trust me it'll look shit haha Cheers Stars Current Mood:  stressedCurrent Music: rocket from the tombs |
| Saturday, April 8th, 2006 |
| 2:23 pm |
:)
i forgot how awesome sonic youth were DAM! i just got home from op shopping and decided to put sonic youth "screaming fields of sonic love" on and seriously it the best decision i have made all day :) i fucking love that band soo much :) hmmm mello awesome-ness Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: sonic youth "screaming fields of sonic love" |
| Wednesday, March 29th, 2006 |
| 5:39 pm |
BEST WEDDING EVER!!!
 Sharleen and Tim got married sunday night and it was beautiful :)  Yeah we liked the food :) Current Mood:  cheerfulCurrent Music: kenny loggins - footloose |
| Sunday, March 19th, 2006 |
| 2:57 pm |
PETER COMBES "i had a friend in Adelaide"
whats black? "WHATS BLACK?"" and whats white? "WHATS WHITE?" and read all over "READ ALL OVER?" everyday? "EVERYDAY?" its the ............ NEWSPAPER MAMMA, NEWSPAPER MAMMA, NEWSPAPER MAMMA EVERYDAY  Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: peter combes -toffee apple |
| Thursday, February 16th, 2006 |
| 4:27 pm |
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| Saturday, February 4th, 2006 |
| 12:59 pm |
Okay so life has turned around :) I was having a few bad weeks due to my friend Dickie passing away and my mums condition getting terribly worse but things have turned around. The other week after Dickies funeral his parents came up to my parents and asked if we would have Dickies dog Jessie which is great because Jessie mean't alot to Dickie and i feel honoured to know Jessie is on our farm :) My mum is on new medication for her disability and she has got back her speach to a regular level and she has a little bit of strength in her legs YAY which means she might beable to get out of the wheelchair. My stepdad have convinced the army to NOT post him in Sydney for army until April which means my stepdad can look after my mum a bit longer and she won't be alone on the farm. The other week FAUX HAWKS, HARDLUCK and BILLY ( aka hire-a-mosh) came down to play a show and stayed with us at the BAGOT AVE PARTY CHILLER HOUSE CHE!. They were great to have at the house and fun to hang out with :) Also i had a blast at their shows hahah Dougy threw a goilf ball at bennys eye while he was playing and fully fucked his eye up I THINK hahahah. We went to the jetty and bridge and went to town for VEGOS YUMMMM. Billy ( aka hire-a-mosh) came down with the guys aswell and was a fucking legend to have around hahah even when he thought he lost his wallet hahah. I really miss those dudes there all chilled and fun except Benny is a bad influence on Dougy haha QUIT SNIFFING PEOPLE YOU CREEPS hahah I have been out looking for work and it's been going welll i have a had quite a few interviews and callbacks so i think i might pick up a job soon :) Issue 3 of my zine is coming alone soooo well i have already got 7 bands lined up :) a few columns and reviews done aswell YAY I'm looking at visiting Sydney between march and april sometime to see friends, release my zine and see shows YAY CHE! stars xvx p.s LIFE IS RAD :) Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: JOEY SCARBURY- believe it or not ( best posi song ever) |
| Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 |
| 10:32 am |
GET MOIST LOZZA ;)
Lozza sent me this interview a few weeks back has had me laughing ever since hahah  ahahaha, i read this interview with our Zoli and nearly peed my pants.. After calm found Teglas -- his band plays the Sanctuary on Saturday -- he turned to another type of release of emotional energy. "I try to have sex, to get it out that way, " he says. Sex with groupies has led him to this observation. American groupies hang out on the tour bus, drink beer, then take their clothes off. European groupies do the same thing, but they issue a disclaimer at some point that goes: "I usually don't do this. I'm not a groupie." "And then panties are coming off, " Teglas says. But Teglas, 27, has also started feeling guilty about groupie sex, because groupies who are 19 or 20 don't always realize when they're in the grip of a one-night stand, he says. He's maturing. He has a girlfriend. But he tries to have as much sex with her as possible, since he still can. "Because one day, your (equipment) is not gonna work, " he explains. Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Agnostic Front- BLIND JUSTICE (great song) |
| Thursday, January 26th, 2006 |
| 8:12 pm |
JIMMY BARNES RULZZZZ
ok so today i walked up to Laurens house and we decided to go to see Jimmy Barnes because he was playing a free show at Elder Park and we met Jo there hahah and it was GREAT. Jimmy is pretty good for a old cunt he rocks out harder than most hardcore bands hahahah. After lauren and i got frozen raspberry drinks and came back to my house and chatted and i made up dinner :) Miso tofu steaks, steam vegies with linseed meal and lemon juice and crazy cool summer mix with benas etc. It was yum :) so i have had a pretty good Australia day soo far :) Tonight i'm going to the Cumby to hang out with mates and have a few laughs should be fun :) CHE! stars p.s thanks to all my friends that got me through last week :) Dickies funeral was last friday so i'm kind of glad it's all over. Ow and Dickies family have gave us his old dog Jessie :) i'm soo happy because now when i visit the farm i can play with jessie and it'll help me remember the goodtimes :) R.I.P DICKIE 21/07/82 - 16/01/06 i will hold onto these memories Current Mood: drainedCurrent Music: Black Flag, Sublime and Tiger Army |
| Wednesday, January 25th, 2006 |
| 11:46 pm |
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| Tuesday, January 17th, 2006 |
| 12:10 am |
just found a pic
this is DICKIE at my going away party haha he was drunk and fell asleep with a hat/ helmet/ beanie on his head while sitting in a chair hahaha I MISS YOU  R.I.P**** DICKIE 21/07/82- 16/01/06 i'm gonna miss your crazy talk bro :( Current Mood: sad |
| Monday, January 16th, 2006 |
| 9:10 pm |
WORST DAY EVER - MY GOOD FRIEND RICHARD (aka DICKIE) DIED
ok so i thought today couldn't get any worse with it being the 5 year anniversary of my grandfathers death and i got reallll sick this afternoon. But i just got off the phone to my mum and found out that my good friend Dickie who lived up the road from me near my farm in Tasmania passed away lastnight. He was a fucking legend aswell and was one of the most beautiful people i had the pleasure of meeting. He was my first friend i made in Tasmania and treated me like a little sister. Without him i would of never of lasted the time i did on the farm he showed how to adapt to the farm and he always had me laughing :( All because of a fucking snake bite he is gone :( Upset doesn't even begin to explain how i feel :( but angry, sad, depressed and shocked does come into it fuck i hate life today fuck i'm gonna miss that kid :( ***** R.I.P ***** DICKIE 21/07/82- 16/01/06 23 is too young to die but you will live on in my heart the memories will keep your presence alive Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: DESCENDENTS - everything sucks (played non stop) |
| 1:24 pm |
R.I.P
 5 years today my best friend/ grandfather passed away and i am missing him more than ever :( **** R.I.P **** Ralph (aka Grumps) Jacobi 16/01/01 you have never left my heart and you live on in my memories xoxoxooxoxox |
| Friday, January 13th, 2006 |
| 10:42 pm |
BEST NIGHT EVER
well lastnight i headed into town to meet Akira to enjoy a Thursday night with plenty of potential to party :) I arrived in town early so i went and visited the lovely ladies at the Chocolate Bean and got a fantastic vegan hot chocolate while i was there :) Then on my way to meet Akira at shotz i bumped into some friends from years ago at the Cranka which was Awesome i love seeing old faces :) After all that i finally met up with Akira and headed to Shotz for the FINAL KARAOKE THURSDAY NIGHT EVER!!!!!! hahah but it was dead like no one there hahah So we headed up to the Cumberland to meet friends and wish Neil a happy B'day and it was great i had soooooooo much fun just hang'n with rad people and new/ old friends the night was great and has just put in the most amazing mood and made me syked on life :) and i got to see and hang with the boy i like YAY seriously he's a rad dude CHE! stars p.s Gingo is the best cat EVER !!!!!!!!! p.s.s Gonz thanx for being the best mate a broad could ask for :) Current Mood:  geekyCurrent Music: Frenzal Rhomb |
| Wednesday, January 11th, 2006 |
| 6:04 pm |
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